Nova: Astrono-Me Mixtape

Shout out to my homie Nova.

Mixtape is DOPE. Finally got to listen to it after a few weeks.

Download it. Listen to it. Love it.

2008.

Has been the worst year of my life. With losing my Dad, going through an unforgettable emotional break-up, what I call "Momma Drama", getting robbed, and much MUCH more, this year has been some SHIT. 2009? Oh, 2009 will be my year. I'll be going to school and working on getting my life in order. Wish me luck, even though it's not exactly needed but it won't hurt. I have lots of goals this year and for years to come. I'm excited, motivated, and I will allow nothing to cause me to fall, not even me.

2009. Are you ready?

Dear Readers,

I apologize for my absence on this very blog I call Heartless. With my somewhat busy schedule and no laptop, I haven't been able to sit in front of the computer as I used to. :-\

Any who, Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa, and Happy Holidays.

Christmas was a difficult obstacle for me this year but all in all it was good. Hope it was good for you, too.

Peace, love, & joy.

-T.Nilla

About me.

I feel as though I need to further explain myself... ME, as a person. You see that my blog title is "heartless" and the contents inside tell you I'm in love with love, I love this person and that, right? Confused? Well.. this is me:
Okay. I'm not exactly heartless. I'd like to be, it would make my life so much easier, but I'm not. I use the word heartless because I don't have a heart for those I once did. I no longer forgive and forget. I may forgive, but I'll never forget. I no longer put up with being pushed around, taken advantage of, or forced to do anything. My heart is no longer present in the relationship with that person and myself. (I'm not thinking of one particular scenario, by the way.) Right now, I love no one but my family. Maybe a friend or two, as well. But the idea of falling in love with someone is so intriguing to me. Love is something I wish to experience the way my grandparents did. It really is beautiful. Although, I'm in no rush. I'm not out there just looking for someone to fall in love with. I'm just living my life and going about my own business. Hopefully love will then cross my path.

I wish you didn't have to go...

So lately I've been having wierd dreams. Mainly about my dad. The first one was the other night, I dreamt he came back. It's a fuzzy dream but I remember saying, "He doesn't look the same, but as long as he's back I don't care." Hmm.. Then last night I had the strangest dream. It was in a wierd setting, of course, but my dad was young. He looked about mid-20's. I was still the age I am now and I was trying to get my Dad alone at this huge party. He went to the bathroom and I caught him on his way out. He looked at me, having no clue who I was, and I said, "Excuse me.. this is going to sound crazy but you have to listen to me. I'm your daughter from the future and... "(I begin to cry because he has a look of disbelief on his face) He begins to walk away but I grab his arm. Through tears I say, "Dad... Ed, You have to stop. You have to stop what you're doing. If you don't stop.. You're going to die. You're going to die on March 15, 2008." I think he said, "This is crazy." I could smell the alcohol on his breath. Then he walked away. I began to blubber, "but I miss you." Then I woke up.

Hmm.. Really wierd. I was thinking about him all night. From the time I got home untill I fell asleep. Maybe that's why I dreamt about him. I've been thinking about him a lot more lately since the holidays are coming up. But hey, atleast I saw my Dad.

DMV/YouTube Cypher - Lyriciss

That's what I'm talkin 'bout!
Pro'verb up next.

"Super Boo" - Kid Cudi

Props to illroots. Song is dope.

I need an iPod or something. ASAP.

Click to Download/Listen

Btw, check out Kanye's post from ealier today. CNN: Common x Obama

Kid Cudi - "Day & Night" (vid)

YES, I stole it from Nando. What do you expect? I love this video. Literally. :)

The Cougar is provoked..

I hate my car. Just wanted to let you know. I can't wait until I graduate from dental hygiene school and start cleaning teeth so I can just get my Nissan Altima. That's all I want. Nothing too extravagant.

;)

I need a job...

The power of music...

is truly amazing. Seriously. The way music can bring out your emotions is incredible. Whether it be the blues, hip-hop, or even country, emotions tend to rise out of the soul and be portrayed through tears, laughter, anger, etc. For me, music puts me in a zone. It makes everything in life disappear and I'm all of the sudden in a new world. Music is my therapy. Music is my escape. Music is my best friend. Not just hip-hop, rap, and R&B either. (Btw where is R&B these days?) The blues, rock and roll, jazz, etc. can also put me in my zone (depending on the artist and/or era). Music can be so under appreciated sometimes, though. Like... what if there was no music? A world without music... what a terrible place this would be. Musical capability and talent is a gift. Not everyone has it, but I'm thankful for the ones who do.

I wish that I could share the select underground artists from the DMV areas' music with the world. They are missing out on great things. It's a shame that the rich and famous can't take time out of their busy schedules to recognize the real and the talented. Since the only way the world (or atleast the country) can hear us is through them.

Anyways, in the end, Music is just dope as hell.

;)

"Cadillac Records"

Okay, so this movie is probably just about one of the best movies I have ever seen. It's definitely in the top 5. Columbus Short did an AMAZING job. Seriously. His character was absolutely crazy, but he did a great job playing it. Mos Def was hilarious as always and to be honest, I love all the music in this movie. I wish I had my poor laptop to download the soundtrack. :-\

Adrien Brody as Leonard Chess

Jeffrey Wright as Muddy Waters

Beyonce Knowles as Etta James

Mos Def as Chuck Berry

Columbus Short as Little Walter

I love it.

http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/cadillacrecords/

DMV YouTube Cypher - G*Two

Lyriciss is up next!

Uhm.... WOW!!!

So I'm blogging, right. I come accross anmlhse.com and I see this:
(Come on. You know I HAD to watch it. You will, too, don't lie)

LMAO!

There are just SO many things WRONG and discusting here. I feel queezy.

*runs to the bathroom and throws up*

At ease.

Yes, my mind is at ease. Atleast for the moment. There are still things I'm stressed about, but I know things will get better. I'm motivated in many different ways. I'm only giving my time and efforts to my family, jobs, school, and friends. I need absolutely nothing else.

I'm officially broke, sad to say. After the bills, gas (which I'm using up like it's water), and other payments my pockets are empty. :-\ Oh, well. Guess that's just the way of life. I had fun being Miss Money Bags for a few months, though.

I'm learning to love my Mom even more than I ever did. We have a record of having MAJOR problems. We wouldn't go one day without fighting. I'm glad it's changed. I love you, Mom.

Oh, and let me say Thank You to the only friend I believe is there for me. All I want to do is laugh and thanks to you, I'm always laughing. :) Love you.

Markyland:

Apparentley has been cancelled.

Not sure of all the details, but yes it's true.

Sorry, folks. :-\

Keep listening to Funkadelic Freestyles!

Markyland Episodes 1 & 2:

I apologize for being one and two weeks late for these. Things have been so hectic, plus my laptop is gone! Anywho, here are the links. Episode 3 is tonight! Tune in to Funkadelic Freestyles at 8:30 p.m. here: http://gwradio.com/Links/listenlive/


Markyland Episode 1: http://www.zshare.net/audio/51551399836d15ef/
Marklyland Episode 2: http://www.zshare.net/audio/51978286f2498552/

Wale - Nike Boots (Video)

Every other blogger has posted it, but oh well. I love this video.