I still miss you.

"God saw you getting tired

and a cure was not to be, so

He put His arms around you,

and whispered, "Come to Me."

With tearful eyes we watched you,

and saw you pass away.

Although we loved you dearly,

we could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating,

hard working hands at rest,

God broke our hearts to prove

He only takes the best."

R.I.P. Daddy.

Forever you will be missed.

Blessed be thy name.

Blessings truely come in disguise.
Thats all I really have to say.

Never again will I update my blog from a text. That is all.

I lied.

So maybe my blog didn't exactly make a comeback... but I thought it was going to. Once I figure out how to blog mobile, I think I'm just going to use this as my diary. Get out all the thoughts in my head for the day OUT and where else better to put it but on the world wide web! Sweet right?!!?!? Ha. Right. Being as though I only have access to my moms 1950 computer I'm clueless as to whats out in the music world. Besides the radio.. & we all know how THAT can be sometimes. I miss downloading. *tear*
Any who, I don't really feel like speaking my mind right now. There's too much to speak on and I'm a tad tired. Maybe tomorrow or sometime this week!

Love you all, readers. Night.

Dumbo.

I just have to say one thing:


The male species has utterly and completely lost their fucking minds.

So, I'm getting this done to my hair!

I figured well, It's summer. So Summer I'll be blonde and winter I'll be brunette. Seems about right since idk which one I like better.

:)

<3

My loves.

All 3.

I'm back?

WHOAAAAAAA!
I haven't written on this thing in a loooooong time. I'm pondering on whether I should start blogging again. I have NO music. Because the only computer I have is my freakin mothers and its too slow for all that. :( Plus, I dont have much time for internet surfing. But I guess I can stop through once and a while!

Ummmm.... Killa & BESTFRIEND ilu. and the trip is gunna be dope.
Thats all I have to say.

Ta ta for now!

"Love"

This has been on my brain for a few days now.

What is Love?

How do you know when you love someone? I'm not talking about the way family loves one another, but the way two people come together and build a relationship kind of love. Like seriously, how do you know you're in love? Let me guess.. "You just know." Uhmmmm.. idk about that.

(Not that I'm in it or anything, I'm just curious!)

Opinions would be appreciated!

:)

VENTI white chocolate mocha.

Yummmm.

Sooo. Tough times, tough times. It's getting closer and closer to March 15. It will be a year since he's passed. Seems like just yesterday he and I were laughing together. Despite the pain I feel, I'm joyed to have had him in my life. To have experienced his love and embrace. He cared for me more than anyone ever has, and I know he still does. I'm lucky to have had him there for 17 years of my life.

My mom and I aren't doing so well. We don't argue or fight, but she's emotionally bringing me down and discouraging me. I'm trying not to let her get to me but it's just so hard when you have someone right there in your ear telling you you're a failure and insulting your whole entire personality ever single day. She's really holding me back and it's just getting hard to deal with.

Relationships I won't even begin to touch base on. There's no point. Whoever is in my life right now won't be a month from now. That's just the way it goes. I just don't trust people anymore.

I'm just working right now. I'm going to take very few classes if any this summer but in the fall I will be a full time student. I'm enjoying the things that I DO have at the moment, which isn't much.

So.. that's that!

Love.

30 Random Facts:

About me.
Yeah, it's on my facebook but my blog has been kind of dry lately so I'm posting it here.



1. I miss my dad every single day of my life.
2. I regret a lot of things from my past, but theres no point in being hung up on it. Just move on and try to make things better.
3. I LOVE food.
4. I'm self concious and confident at the same time.
5. At the moment I don't have a job or go to school.
6. Too many people walk in and out of my life, so I just enjoy the time that they're in it.
7. My mother and I don't get along. We are close to hating eachother.
8. I have very few FRIENDS.
9. I think family is overrated.
10. I'm deeply in love with love.
11. I'm not 100% sure I've ever actually been in love.
12. I think that inside of every person is a beautiful soul, some people just need that special person to bring it out.
13. I sometimes judge people.
14. I'm quick to jump to conclusions.
15. I think that Kenan Bartley is the funniest person to ever chief with.
16. I miss my sister and wish she lived closer.
17. My neice and nephew are the most beautiful human beings on earth.
18. I love dogs!
19. I AM Cinderella.
20. I'm currently trying to fix my life because I've been fucking up the past few months.
21. I cry a lot, but I have good reasons.
22. I'm attracted to a sense of humor.
23. I don't handle boredom well.
24. I miss my childhood and would give anything to re-live it.
25. I wish I could re-do high school.
26. I'm jealous of people living the college life.
27. I do stupid things alot.
28. I HATE planning things. The plans always go wrong.
29. I watch I Love Lucy.. and I love it.
30. I hate fake people and people who lie for absolutely no reason.

DMV/YouTube Cypher - Deron

iPhone

Okay, so my brother gave me his already locked iPhone a few months ago. I went to go put my songs on there and I accidentally re-locked it. I need help un-locking it! I don't know how and I've tried EVERYTHING. If you know of anyone or even if you yourself can help, PLEASE let me know. I basically don't have a phone right now because of this and I'm pretty upset. :(

I would appreciate it!

Love you all!

I love him.

Happy Birthday Daddy

I miss you. Happy 48th.

Love You Always.

Am I c... c... crazy?

Life is getting a little bit difficult for me right now. I'm so.. wishy washy with my feelings. I'm not sure why but one minute I'm fine. I'm motivated, I'm up-beat, I'm excited for the new year.. but the next minute I just feel like giving up. (No I am NOT pregnant so please whipe that conclusion from your mind!) I've been restless lately. Going to sleep and 4 or 5 a.m. simply because there's so much on my mind. It would be great to have someone to talk to. I feel like that would help a bunch, but we all know none of MY friends have time to waste talking about MY life. Next solution? I have no clue. I wish I could control the way I feel sometimes but I can't. Does that make me crazy?

What is a friend?

A question to ALL my readers: What is a friend?

I'm asking this because I seem to have a misunderstanding on what the qualities in a friend should be. I'm very close to not believing in the word 'friend'. Like when a child finds out there really is no such thing as a Santa, I'm finding out there's no such thing as a friend.

Inputs and opinions would be great!

LMFAO!!

Yo, this is funny as shit! Yes, I stole it from D.Omen but it's funny as hell. I actually watched it from begining to end.

DMV YouTube Cypher - Pro'Verb

Happy New Year!

Happy 2009, DMV! It's going to be a great year.
I brought it in right... did you?