Sunday, February 1, 2009

VENTI white chocolate mocha.

Yummmm.
Sooo. Tough times, tough times. It's getting closer and closer to March 15. It will be a year since he's passed. Seems like just yesterday he and I were laughing together. Despite the pain I feel, I'm joyed to have had him in my life. To have experienced his love and embrace. He cared for me more than anyone ever has, and I know he still does. I'm lucky to have had him there for 17 years of my life.
My mom and I aren't doing so well. We don't argue or fight, but she's emotionally bringing me down and discouraging me. I'm trying not to let her get to me but it's just so hard when you have someone right there in your ear telling you you're a failure and insulting your whole entire personality ever single day. She's really holding me back and it's just getting hard to deal with.
Relationships I won't even begin to touch base on. There's no point. Whoever is in my life right now won't be a month from now. That's just the way it goes. I just don't trust people anymore.
I'm just working right now. I'm going to take very few classes if any this summer but in the fall I will be a full time student. I'm enjoying the things that I DO have at the moment, which isn't much.
So.. that's that!
Love.

1 comment:

johntaviousbyrd said...

i hope every thing gets better for you, i really do.

just keep your head up & all that good stuff lol