megforprez.

It's been a while..

2010-01-11T14:22:00.000-08:00

So my life. Ummm. Is pretty much the same.
No more safeway. Supervisor at Blockbuster still. Still debating on school. I wanna go but then I won't have time for this job. So, I don't know. I might take some online courses.
I've made a few minor improvements in life. But. I don't really feel like writing too much right now, I just thought I'd come and get a little reacquainted with my blog. SOOOOO. I'll be back a little later.
Love you all.

I still miss you.

2009-09-18T19:38:00.000-07:00

"God saw you getting tired

and a cure was not to be, so

He put His arms around you,

and whispered, "Come to Me."

With tearful eyes we watched you,

and saw you pass away.

Although we loved you dearly,

we could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating,

hard working hands at rest,

God broke our hearts to prove

He only takes the best."

R.I.P. Daddy.

Forever you will be missed.

Blessed be thy name.

2009-09-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

Blessings truely come in disguise.
Thats all I really have to say.

2009-09-10T22:31:00.001-07:00

Never again will I update my blog from a text. That is all.

I lied.

2009-09-09T22:20:00.000-07:00

So maybe my blog didn't exactly make a comeback... but I thought it was going to. Once I figure out how to blog mobile, I think I'm just going to use this as my diary. Get out all the thoughts in my head for the day OUT and where else better to put it but on the world wide web! Sweet right?!!?!? Ha. Right. Being as though I only have access to my moms 1950 computer I'm clueless as to whats out in the music world. Besides the radio.. & we all know how THAT can be sometimes. I miss downloading. *tear*
Any who, I don't really feel like speaking my mind right now. There's too much to speak on and I'm a tad tired. Maybe tomorrow or sometime this week!

Love you all, readers. Night.

Dumbo.

2009-07-02T14:21:00.000-07:00

I just have to say one thing:

The male species has utterly and completely lost their fucking minds.

So, I'm getting this done to my hair!

I figured well, It's summer. So Summer I'll be blonde and winter I'll be brunette. Seems about right since idk which one I like better.

<3

2009-07-01T01:35:00.001-07:00

My loves.

All 3.

I'm back?

2009-07-01T00:50:00.000-07:00

WHOAAAAAAA!
I haven't written on this thing in a loooooong time. I'm pondering on whether I should start blogging again. I have NO music. Because the only computer I have is my freakin mothers and its too slow for all that. :( Plus, I dont have much time for internet surfing. But I guess I can stop through once and a while!

Ummmm.... Killa & BESTFRIEND ilu. and the trip is gunna be dope.
Thats all I have to say.

Ta ta for now!

"Love"

2009-02-15T20:47:00.000-08:00

This has been on my brain for a few days now.

What is Love?

How do you know when you love someone? I'm not talking about the way family loves one another, but the way two people come together and build a relationship kind of love. Like seriously, how do you know you're in love? Let me guess.. "You just know." Uhmmmm.. idk about that.

(Not that I'm in it or anything, I'm just curious!)

Opinions would be appreciated!

VENTI white chocolate mocha.

2009-02-01T22:47:00.000-08:00

Yummmm.

Sooo. Tough times, tough times. It's getting closer and closer to March 15. It will be a year since he's passed. Seems like just yesterday he and I were laughing together. Despite the pain I feel, I'm joyed to have had him in my life. To have experienced his love and embrace. He cared for me more than anyone ever has, and I know he still does. I'm lucky to have had him there for 17 years of my life.

My mom and I aren't doing so well. We don't argue or fight, but she's emotionally bringing me down and discouraging me. I'm trying not to let her get to me but it's just so hard when you have someone right there in your ear telling you you're a failure and insulting your whole entire personality ever single day. She's really holding me back and it's just getting hard to deal with.

Relationships I won't even begin to touch base on. There's no point. Whoever is in my life right now won't be a month from now. That's just the way it goes. I just don't trust people anymore.

I'm just working right now. I'm going to take very few classes if any this summer but in the fall I will be a full time student. I'm enjoying the things that I DO have at the moment, which isn't much.

So.. that's that!

Love.

30 Random Facts:

2009-01-28T14:18:00.001-08:00

About me.
Yeah, it's on my facebook but my blog has been kind of dry lately so I'm posting it here.

1. I miss my dad every single day of my life.
2. I regret a lot of things from my past, but theres no point in being hung up on it. Just move on and try to make things better.
3. I LOVE food.
4. I'm self concious and confident at the same time.
5. At the moment I don't have a job or go to school.
6. Too many people walk in and out of my life, so I just enjoy the time that they're in it.
7. My mother and I don't get along. We are close to hating eachother.
8. I have very few FRIENDS.
9. I think family is overrated.
10. I'm deeply in love with love.
11. I'm not 100% sure I've ever actually been in love.
12. I think that inside of every person is a beautiful soul, some people just need that special person to bring it out.
13. I sometimes judge people.
14. I'm quick to jump to conclusions.
15. I think that Kenan Bartley is the funniest person to ever chief with.
16. I miss my sister and wish she lived closer.
17. My neice and nephew are the most beautiful human beings on earth.
18. I love dogs!
19. I AM Cinderella.
20. I'm currently trying to fix my life because I've been fucking up the past few months.
21. I cry a lot, but I have good reasons.
22. I'm attracted to a sense of humor.
23. I don't handle boredom well.
24. I miss my childhood and would give anything to re-live it.
25. I wish I could re-do high school.
26. I'm jealous of people living the college life.
27. I do stupid things alot.
28. I HATE planning things. The plans always go wrong.
29. I watch I Love Lucy.. and I love it.
30. I hate fake people and people who lie for absolutely no reason.

DMV/YouTube Cypher - Deron

2009-01-12T11:44:00.000-08:00

iPhone

2009-01-10T13:00:00.000-08:00

Okay, so my brother gave me his already locked iPhone a few months ago. I went to go put my songs on there and I accidentally re-locked it. I need help un-locking it! I don't know how and I've tried EVERYTHING. If you know of anyone or even if you yourself can help, PLEASE let me know. I basically don't have a phone right now because of this and I'm pretty upset. :(

I would appreciate it!

Love you all!

I love him.

2009-01-07T19:42:00.002-08:00

Happy Birthday Daddy

2009-01-06T06:54:00.000-08:00

I miss you. Happy 48th.

Love You Always.

Am I c... c... crazy?

2009-01-04T20:13:00.000-08:00

Life is getting a little bit difficult for me right now. I'm so.. wishy washy with my feelings. I'm not sure why but one minute I'm fine. I'm motivated, I'm up-beat, I'm excited for the new year.. but the next minute I just feel like giving up. (No I am NOT pregnant so please whipe that conclusion from your mind!) I've been restless lately. Going to sleep and 4 or 5 a.m. simply because there's so much on my mind. It would be great to have someone to talk to. I feel like that would help a bunch, but we all know none of MY friends have time to waste talking about MY life. Next solution? I have no clue. I wish I could control the way I feel sometimes but I can't. Does that make me crazy?

What is a friend?

2009-01-04T00:40:00.001-08:00

A question to ALL my readers: What is a friend?

I'm asking this because I seem to have a misunderstanding on what the qualities in a friend should be. I'm very close to not believing in the word 'friend'. Like when a child finds out there really is no such thing as a Santa, I'm finding out there's no such thing as a friend.

Inputs and opinions would be great!

LMFAO!!

2009-01-03T12:43:00.000-08:00

Yo, this is funny as shit! Yes, I stole it from D.Omen but it's funny as hell. I actually watched it from begining to end.

DMV YouTube Cypher - Pro'Verb

2009-01-02T17:12:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T19:33:00.001-08:00

Happy 2009, DMV! It's going to be a great year.
I brought it in right... did you?

Nova: Astrono-Me Mixtape

2008-12-29T11:28:00.000-08:00

Shout out to my homie Nova.

Mixtape is DOPE. Finally got to listen to it after a few weeks.

Download it. Listen to it. Love it.

2008.

2008-12-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

Has been the worst year of my life. With losing my Dad, going through an unforgettable emotional break-up, what I call "Momma Drama", getting robbed, and much MUCH more, this year has been some SHIT. 2009? Oh, 2009 will be my year. I'll be going to school and working on getting my life in order. Wish me luck, even though it's not exactly needed but it won't hurt. I have lots of goals this year and for years to come. I'm excited, motivated, and I will allow nothing to cause me to fall, not even me.

2009. Are you ready?

Dear Readers,

2008-12-27T20:07:00.000-08:00

I apologize for my absence on this very blog I call Heartless. With my somewhat busy schedule and no laptop, I haven't been able to sit in front of the computer as I used to. :-\

Any who, Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa, and Happy Holidays.

Christmas was a difficult obstacle for me this year but all in all it was good. Hope it was good for you, too.

Peace, love, & joy.

-T.Nilla

About me.

2008-12-16T12:53:00.000-08:00

I feel as though I need to further explain myself... ME, as a person. You see that my blog title is "heartless" and the contents inside tell you I'm in love with love, I love this person and that, right? Confused? Well.. this is me:
Okay. I'm not exactly heartless. I'd like to be, it would make my life so much easier, but I'm not. I use the word heartless because I don't have a heart for those I once did. I no longer forgive and forget. I may forgive, but I'll never forget. I no longer put up with being pushed around, taken advantage of, or forced to do anything. My heart is no longer present in the relationship with that person and myself. (I'm not thinking of one particular scenario, by the way.) Right now, I love no one but my family. Maybe a friend or two, as well. But the idea of falling in love with someone is so intriguing to me. Love is something I wish to experience the way my grandparents did. It really is beautiful. Although, I'm in no rush. I'm not out there just looking for someone to fall in love with. I'm just living my life and going about my own business. Hopefully love will then cross my path.

I wish you didn't have to go...

2008-12-16T12:17:00.000-08:00

So lately I've been having wierd dreams. Mainly about my dad. The first one was the other night, I dreamt he came back. It's a fuzzy dream but I remember saying, "He doesn't look the same, but as long as he's back I don't care." Hmm.. Then last night I had the strangest dream. It was in a wierd setting, of course, but my dad was young. He looked about mid-20's. I was still the age I am now and I was trying to get my Dad alone at this huge party. He went to the bathroom and I caught him on his way out. He looked at me, having no clue who I was, and I said, "Excuse me.. this is going to sound crazy but you have to listen to me. I'm your daughter from the future and... "(I begin to cry because he has a look of disbelief on his face) He begins to walk away but I grab his arm. Through tears I say, "Dad... Ed, You have to stop. You have to stop what you're doing. If you don't stop.. You're going to die. You're going to die on March 15, 2008." I think he said, "This is crazy." I could smell the alcohol on his breath. Then he walked away. I began to blubber, "but I miss you." Then I woke up.

Hmm.. Really wierd. I was thinking about him all night. From the time I got home untill I fell asleep. Maybe that's why I dreamt about him. I've been thinking about him a lot more lately since the holidays are coming up. But hey, atleast I saw my Dad.

DMV/YouTube Cypher - Lyriciss

2008-12-16T09:52:00.000-08:00

That's what I'm talkin 'bout!
Pro'verb up next.

"Super Boo" - Kid Cudi

2008-12-10T07:54:00.000-08:00

Props to illroots. Song is dope.

I need an iPod or something. ASAP.

Click to Download/Listen

Btw, check out Kanye's post from ealier today. CNN: Common x Obama

Kid Cudi - "Day & Night" (vid)

2008-12-10T07:26:00.000-08:00

YES, I stole it from Nando. What do you expect? I love this video. Literally. :)

The Cougar is provoked..

2008-12-09T09:57:00.000-08:00

I hate my car. Just wanted to let you know. I can't wait until I graduate from dental hygiene school and start cleaning teeth so I can just get my Nissan Altima. That's all I want. Nothing too extravagant.

;)

I need a job...

The power of music...

2008-12-08T09:05:00.000-08:00

is truly amazing. Seriously. The way music can bring out your emotions is incredible. Whether it be the blues, hip-hop, or even country, emotions tend to rise out of the soul and be portrayed through tears, laughter, anger, etc. For me, music puts me in a zone. It makes everything in life disappear and I'm all of the sudden in a new world. Music is my therapy. Music is my escape. Music is my best friend. Not just hip-hop, rap, and R&B either. (Btw where is R&B these days?) The blues, rock and roll, jazz, etc. can also put me in my zone (depending on the artist and/or era). Music can be so under appreciated sometimes, though. Like... what if there was no music? A world without music... what a terrible place this would be. Musical capability and talent is a gift. Not everyone has it, but I'm thankful for the ones who do.

I wish that I could share the select underground artists from the DMV areas' music with the world. They are missing out on great things. It's a shame that the rich and famous can't take time out of their busy schedules to recognize the real and the talented. Since the only way the world (or atleast the country) can hear us is through them.

Anyways, in the end, Music is just dope as hell.

;)

"Cadillac Records"

2008-12-08T06:42:00.000-08:00

Okay, so this movie is probably just about one of the best movies I have ever seen. It's definitely in the top 5. Columbus Short did an AMAZING job. Seriously. His character was absolutely crazy, but he did a great job playing it. Mos Def was hilarious as always and to be honest, I love all the music in this movie. I wish I had my poor laptop to download the soundtrack. :-\

Adrien Brody as Leonard Chess

Jeffrey Wright as Muddy Waters

Beyonce Knowles as Etta James

Mos Def as Chuck Berry

Columbus Short as Little Walter

I love it.

http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/cadillacrecords/

DMV YouTube Cypher - G*Two

2008-12-04T11:39:00.000-08:00

Lyriciss is up next!

Uhm.... WOW!!!

2008-12-03T13:17:00.000-08:00

So I'm blogging, right. I come accross anmlhse.com and I see this:
(Come on. You know I HAD to watch it. You will, too, don't lie)

LMAO!

There are just SO many things WRONG and discusting here. I feel queezy.

*runs to the bathroom and throws up*

At ease.

2008-12-03T07:04:00.000-08:00

Yes, my mind is at ease. Atleast for the moment. There are still things I'm stressed about, but I know things will get better. I'm motivated in many different ways. I'm only giving my time and efforts to my family, jobs, school, and friends. I need absolutely nothing else.

I'm officially broke, sad to say. After the bills, gas (which I'm using up like it's water), and other payments my pockets are empty. :-\ Oh, well. Guess that's just the way of life. I had fun being Miss Money Bags for a few months, though.

I'm learning to love my Mom even more than I ever did. We have a record of having MAJOR problems. We wouldn't go one day without fighting. I'm glad it's changed. I love you, Mom.

Oh, and let me say Thank You to the only friend I believe is there for me. All I want to do is laugh and thanks to you, I'm always laughing. :) Love you.

Markyland:

2008-12-02T09:27:00.000-08:00

Apparentley has been cancelled.

Not sure of all the details, but yes it's true.

Sorry, folks. :-\

Keep listening to Funkadelic Freestyles!

Markyland Episodes 1 & 2:

2008-12-02T07:04:00.000-08:00

I apologize for being one and two weeks late for these. Things have been so hectic, plus my laptop is gone! Anywho, here are the links. Episode 3 is tonight! Tune in to Funkadelic Freestyles at 8:30 p.m. here: http://gwradio.com/Links/listenlive/

Markyland Episode 1: http://www.zshare.net/audio/51551399836d15ef/
Marklyland Episode 2: http://www.zshare.net/audio/51978286f2498552/

Wale - Nike Boots (Video)

2008-12-02T06:45:00.001-08:00

Every other blogger has posted it, but oh well. I love this video.

DMV Cypher - Mouse aka The Waldorf Poster Boy

2008-11-26T18:49:00.000-08:00

KILL.
Made me laugh. I like that guy.
Okay, Mr.Tweezy. Show us what you got.

I'll Be Missing You - "P.Diddy" ft. Faith Evans

2008-11-26T09:08:00.000-08:00

(Honestly, I don't keep up with his names. Isn't it Diddy now? Smh.)
No smart comments about that, please

Anyways, I listen to this song a lot. It's currently the song you are listening to, that is unless you have stopped the song because it was interrupting what you were just now listening to. Either that or you just don't like the song I have provided. Oh well! Okay so this song means a lot to me for many reasons. My dad was obsessed with music. When I was a kid, he had cassette tapes all over the house and in his car. There was a few songs he listened to that stand out in my memory, The Police's "Every Breath You Take" being one of them. Now if you have never heard the song before, it seems as though [P.Diddy] sampled the melody and the end result was "I'll Be Missing You" featuring Faith Evans. Not only that, but around '97 when the song came out my Dad and I listened to the same radio stations. This song began to play and we both loved it. Just the sound of the song reminds me of him as well as the good times we have had. Honestly, in '97 when I was about 7 or 8 I wasn't listening to the words, but as I got older and the song would play on the radio every once and a while I listened. I relate to almost every single word. I feel the lyrics. It brings me to tears, to be honest.
One more thing, I believe that both of these songs ("Every Breath You Take" and "I'll Be Missing You") are perfect for my Dad and I. In "Every Breath You Take" the lyrics are:
"Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
Ill be watching you"
I feel as though that's my Dads version to me. Everything I do, he's going to be there watching over me. As for "I'll Be Missing You" the lyrics are:
"Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every time I pray
Ill be missing you"
This is my version to him. No matter what I do, I'll be missing him.

Well, I've shared my thoughts. Here's The Police's "Every Breath You Take" to ease your curiosity. Just in case. (Now that I think about it, this song is a little stalker-creepy.)

Every Breath You Take - The Police

R.I.P. William Edward Horn

It's official!

2008-11-26T06:34:00.000-08:00

I am back in MD! Ha!

I missed it. :)

I still have to drive all the way to VA to work everyday, but hey I've gotta do what I've gotta do.

Everything will be fine, just as I thought it would be. I'm happy to be home. I'm just hoping and praying that my Mom and I get along. Last time I lived with her we fought constantly, but I'm going to try my best to avoid confrontation.

It's a full house, though. HOPEFULLY my uncle and his little family will move out soon.

:-\

Oh, and my grandparents called me today. MY car is out of the shop now. Which means they're bringing it to me tomorrow! FINALLY. I'll have to illegally drive it for a month, but that's alright. Again, I have to do what I have to do.

Yay me!!

I see the light!

2008-11-25T08:33:00.000-08:00

I called my insurance company today. I remembered I have renters insurance (since it made my car insurance cheaper) and she told me I have a $500.00 deductable. SO! Using that, I can get a new laptop and a new phone. The money, maybe not, but atleast I'll have a laptop again. It's either that or pay 800-900 dollars for a laptop then 250 dollars for a new phone

We will see, though!

I can't wait to get home.

Faith.

2008-11-24T06:57:00.000-08:00

With everything that is going on, I've been extremely sad, depressed, and losing hope for anything good in life since Saturday night.

I can't get a hold of the cop that is helping us with the "robbery" which means I'm not getting my laptop back. I'm broke as hell because dude stole all my money. My sister claimed me out of her life. My mom is pissed, but she's helping a little. I have to pay lord knows how much money for my roommates car. I have to get a new phone. There's just SO much that needs to be done.

Anyways, there have been a lot of weird things going on since Saturday night. Out of everything that was stolen, two things very important to me remained in the house. One is my xbox 360. (lol) It's important to me because my Dad got it for me for Christmas last year. It was out in the open, right there in the family room. I was shocked to see it still there. Also, my Dads watch was sitting right on my dresser. It was moved, though. I had it next to my two picture frames but it ended up on the other side of my dresser after everything was stolen. It's a nice watch. If it were to be pawned one could get a nice amount of money for it. THEN, this morning as I was getting dressed, I just put my little tank-top on and I looked back in the mirror and for some reason my tattoo really stood out. I always forget it's there and never pay any attention to it, but this morning it was there. My dad took me to get that tattoo. That tattoo reminds me of him. That tattoo has a deep meaning, it's not there just because.

In the end, I feel that all these things are my Dad telling me he's there. He's still there for me. If not physically, he's there mentally and emotionally. I know what he's telling me. He's telling me to have Faith. Have faith in God, have faith in myself, have faith in life. With faith in my heart I will only grow and learn from my mistakes. There's hope for my life.

Even though I'm upset he's not physically with me anymore, I'm glad he's still here in every other way. He's still helping me grow and mature. He's still helping me get through the tough times. He was and he is the best father a girl could ever have.

With all that said, I'm moving back to Maryland as soon as I get my car, which is supposed to be Thursday. I'll have to make the commute to VA so I can work and pay for my room mates car, but once it's paid then I'll put in my two weeks. I'll have to find a part time job close to my house in MD. Also, I have to hurry up and register for school. I'm excited to go home. Maryland is pretty much all I've ever known, and to tell you the honest truth, I miss my mom. I miss my Patpa. I miss my puppy. I just miss my home.

Everything will be fine. I have Faith.

Oh, by the way, as for people being there for me... WOW.
Out of the three people I contacted because I needed someone to talk to, not ONE was available. But that's alright. There are things WAY more important. My problems are not their problems. They don't have to be there. Nope....

Hella Ridiculous

2008-11-23T15:59:00.000-08:00

Last night my roommate had a little 'party' and now my life is up in flames.

To make THE longest story short, my laptop, my phone, and all my money was stolen. I've been stepping on and cleaning up glass all day because of a stupid fight. Of course I'm hearing it from my mother, but she's letting me go back home. My sister isn't speaking to me and refuses to let me ride with her to work.

I'm never drinking alcohol again in my life. I've never been as serious as I am right now.

I'm just going to live with my mom and go to school. I can wait a few years to be on my own.

SO. Maryland, here I come! F*ck VA. I'm going home.

Continue? 1up Edition

2008-11-21T22:18:00.001-08:00

Nando. Continue? 1up Special Edition

Dowload NOW!!

-Click picture to download-
You may now scream 'OMG' like a little white girl.
;)

Coke vs. Pepsi

2008-11-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

Okay, there's always talk about the controversy between Coke and Pepsi. Some prefer coke, some prefer Pepsi. Some don't even give a flying f*ck because they hate soda, period.

Well, I'm a Pepsi gal myself. If you know ME then you know I love Pepsi. Seriously.

I was on the phone the other day and I loudly took a sip of an 'unknown to my caller' beverage and he goes, "Is that Pepsi good?" LMAO. I thought that was funny, because it was delish!

ANYWAYS, the purpose of me even posting a blog about Coke and Pepsi is because yesterday I was at Target with my sister and my niece, and I hadn't had dinner so I decided to go get something to eat at their little concession shop. After I order I go to get my soda and I'm AMAZED at what I see. The left side was 5 Pepsi products, and the right side was 5 Coke products. WHAT!? Normally you have one or the other, I've never in my life seen this before. No, I honestly don't really get out much, lol. I hate having to be stuck with Coke at McDonald's (although the Coke there is exceptionally tasty for some apparent reason).

Just thought I'd share with you the amazing Soda Fountain I found!

Btw Chipotle is some shit.

DMV/YouTube Cypher - Ice the Villain

2008-11-21T06:39:00.000-08:00

VERY nice. Great Job!
Honestly, I can't wait to see what the rest of the DMV's gunna do!
Mouse aka The Waldorf Posterboy is up next!

Dad,

2008-11-20T17:34:00.000-08:00

The holidays are coming up. I'm dreading it all. I can't believe I will have to celebrate Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years without you. It just doesn't seem real.
I wish you didn't have to go. I wish you could still be here with me and watch me grow into the young woman that I am becoming. I miss your love. I miss your care. I miss your humor. I miss you. Each day gets harder and harder, bit by bit. Thank goodness you raised me to be strong. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be who I am today. Thank you, Dad, for teaching me the life lessons I needed to be taught. God knows I was on the wrong track, thanks for pointing me in the right direction. I hope I can one day make you proud.
I love you, Dad. I miss you like crazy.
Love Always and Forever,
Meagan Nicole

P.S.- Yes, I will always be your little girl.

Christmas Present #1

2008-11-20T13:54:00.001-08:00

Well, since I won't exactly be getting anything for christmas, I'm buying myself all my own gifts!

& Guess what?! I'm getting these early!

Currently waiting for them to come.

Sweet Dreams. LMAO!

2008-11-20T10:12:00.000-08:00

Nando: lol I'm bout to send you the joint after I tell you about my WILD ass dream...
ThrillaNilla: Lol ok
ThrillaNilla:Well... it looks like youre going to have to wait to tell me the story.. I'm about to go to lunch.
Nando: k
Nando: damn....
ThrillaNilla: Well I THOUGHT I was about to go to lunch. Lol.
Nando: So I'm in High School, and It's SOMETHING I forgot what happened but all of a sudden I'm running down a High Schoo hallway with Big Boi from Outkast while he's running down there with this BAD ASS white girl and I get past ALL the teachers classes and didin't get in trouble and all of a sudden out of nowhere, Afrika Bambaataa "Looking for the perfect beat"started playing and I started dancing like shit. smh....so I'm late for whatever class I was in and soon as I got to the door eyeryone was looking at me, so the song came on again and I started getting it. haha! and when they were done I was like, "Give it up for my band...they're so lovely don't you agree?" ROTFLMAO!!!!! Crazy right? lmao
ThrillaNilla: HAHAHA
ThrillaNilla: WOW
ThrillaNilla: I think that just made my day. LMAO

Lol. Just thought the dream was funny.

Cayan - My City

2008-11-19T19:01:00.000-08:00

Sorry for being so late, but I HAD to post this. I LOVE this song. Like, for real.
So.. download it. It is iPod worthy.
-click picture to download-

Cypher:

2008-11-18T12:42:00.000-08:00

Here's a post from Nandos blog?.

-Just trying to ge the word out.-

"What I'm trying to do is organize the BEST from this area up-and-coming and promote they're talent. If you haven't seen the youtube cypher you should check it out. So get your digi-cam's and get ready to get some exposure.

Here are the instructions:

*Send a email to nikenando@gmail.com or thrillanilla@gmail.com with your myspace/blogsite.

*If you are accepted you will receive a beat.

*Record a video of you spitting your BEST 16 . At the end call out who YOU think should go next. (And know for sure if they are...Don't be calling out Wale' n shit...)

*Post it on youtube with the header title as: 'your name' DMV youtube chypher.

Simple?"

Paranoia?

2008-11-18T12:29:00.000-08:00

So I think I might be going DEF.

I'm not even joking right now.

I haven't been able to hear out of my right ear for going on three days now. Every once and a while I hear a ringing noise or I feel pain. I was thinking it was an ear infection untill today when my other ear started to feel funny.

Hopefully it really is only my paranoia. :(

What would I do if I could no longer hear the music?!

Honestly, the ringing in my right ear is giving me a headache.

(Yes, my ears are VERY clean!)

Unto Me, or Unto You?

2008-11-18T06:50:00.000-08:00

Oh, Kanye.

2008-11-17T07:02:00.000-08:00

I've always loved Kanye and his music, but after hearing on the radio this morning that he was arrested in London (Yes, I'm late, no need to rub it in my face) I had to do some research and quite frankly, I have 10x's more respect for him than I ever did. Like, I look up to him.

In his blog, he commented on what happened the night he got 'arrested':

"REGARDLESS OF HOW MUCH LIGHT I PUT OUT, THERE ARE PEOPLE WORKING JUST AS HARD TO ONLY DELIVER DARKNESS. IF YOU LISTEN TO MY MUSIC, HOW COULD I DELIVER SO MANY POSITIVE UPLIFTING MESSAGES AND BE THE MONSTER THAT THE MEDIA PAINTS. PAPARAZZI GIVE REAL PHOTOGRAPHERS A BAD NAME. A PICTURE IS WORTH A THOUSAND WORDS, THEIRS ARE WORTH A THOUSAND DOLLARS...
LET US NOT FORGET THE PAPS KILLED PRINCESS DIANA. WHEN WILL THERE BE A LAW PASSED THAT SIMPLY ENFORCES THAT SOMEONE HAS TO ASK TO TAKE A PHOTOGRAPH OF YOU. THAT WOULD SEEM LIKE COMMON COURTESY. RIGHT NOW THE PAPS ARE ABOVE THE LAW AND THE PEOPLE THEY SHOOT ARE BELOW IT. WHAT SHOULD BE ILLEGAL IS PICTURES TAKEN WITH THE INTENT TO SELL....LIKE DRUGS WITH THE INTENT TO SELL... OR CROSSING CUSTOMS WITH ENOUGH MERCHANDISE TO HAVE THE INTENT TO SELL. THE EXPLOITATION OF MY IMAGE IS THE PROBLEM. IT PRODUCES A "BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY" BEHAVIOR THAT CAUSE THE PAPS TO DRIVE RECKLESSLY ON FREEWAYS, JUMP OVER FENCES AND INVADE PRIVACY ALL IN AN EFFORT TO GET THAT "MONEY SHOT." YOU SHOULDN'T BE ABLE TO SELL A PICTURE OF ME WITHOUT MY PERMISSION. AFTER THIS LAW IS PASSED, WHEN YOU ENTER A PUBLIC PLACE LIKE A BASKETBALL ARENA ETC., THERE WILL BE A SIGN THAT READS..."ALL PHOTOS TAKEN HERE ARE PUBLIC DOMAIN AND CAN BE USED AT THE PHOTOGRAPHERS DISCRETION." OBVIOUSLY RED CARPET EVENTS WHERE PEOPLE SHOW UP TO BE PHOTOGRAPHED WILL ALSO APPLY. THE PERSONAL PROBLEM I HAVE WITH THE PAPS IS WHEN THEY TRY TO CATCH YOU BEING A REGULAR PERSON. I AM NOT A CELEBRITY. I'M A NORMAL PERSON THAT'S JUST FAMOUS. I REFUSE TO SNEAK IN AND OUT OF BACK DOORS AND KITCHENS OF HOTELS ETC....I AM PROTECTING MY PERSONAL SPACE SINCE THERE ARE NO LAWS TO PROTECT THAT FOR ME.I PUT MY HAND UP TO THE CAMERA IN SELF DEFENSE!HERE'S WHAT HAPPENED...WHEN I LEFT THE CLUB, I WAS ENCOUNTERED BY A THIRSTY PAPARAZZI AS USUAL. HE FELT HE HAD MORE RIGHTS TO MY SPACE THAN ME, SO I PUT MY HAND UP TO PREVENT HIM FROM TAKING MY IMAGE. I DIDN'T ASSAULT HIM BUT MERELY PUTTING MY HAND UP TO COVER HIS LENS. MY SECURITY YELLED, "GET THE CAMERA OFF HIM." I GUESS IN ALL THE COMMOTION THE CAMERA SCRAPED HIS NOSE.THREE HOURS LATER I GET A KNOCK AT MY HOTEL DOOR. THERE WERE FIVE POLICE OFFICERS IN FRONT OF MY ROOM AND I HAD NO IDEA WHY. I HAD MY SECURITY GO SPEAK WITH THEM. THE COPS WERE VERY CORDIAL BUT TOLD ME THEY HAD TO ARREST ME BECAUSE A COMPLAINT WAS FILED. THAT WAS THE BOGUS PART. THEY PLACED ME IN HANDCUFFS AND DROVE ME TO THE STATION. THEY SPOKE ABOUT HOW THIS WAS OBVIOUSLY A PUBLICITY STUNT BY THE PHOTOGRAPHER BUT THEY STILL HAD TO GO THOUGH THE MOTIONS. WHEN I GOT BACK TO THE HOTEL THERE WERE PAPARAZZI HANGING OVER THE BRIDGE ABOVE THE HOTEL TRYING TO GET A SHOT OF ME GETTING OUT THE POLICE VAN. EVEN THOUGH I WASN'T CHARGED, THE DAMAGE WAS DONE. SURE ENOUGH THE NEXT MORNING, PLASTERED ACROSS EVERY MEDIA OUTLET... KANYE GETS ARRESTED. IT DIDN'T MATTER THAT I WASN'T CHARGED OR THE FACT THAT I HADN'T ASSAULTED ANYONE. ALL THAT MATTERED WAS THAT I WAS ARRESTED.SIDEBAR, THEY QUOTED ME AS SAYING..."GET THE CAMERA OFF HIM!" LIKE I WAS TALKING IN THIRD PERSON. HE TRIED TO MAKE ME SOUND LIKE A CRAZY PERSON AND PEOPLE BELIEVED HIM. WHAT MERIT DOES THIS GUY HAVE THAT HE CAN SAY SOMETHING ABOUT ME AND PEOPLE TAKE IT AS LAW? THE FACT THAT HE COULD GET ME ARRESTED OFF A MERE COMPLAINT BUT I CAN'T ASK HIM TO STOP TAKING PICTURES OF ME IS VERY LOPSIDED.WHO'S WINNING, ME OR THE MEDIA?"

-Kanye
(Ya Damn Right!! Woot, Woot! Lmao.)

Also, I was reading up on PerezHilton.com and my love and respect for him further progressed. He has every right to get as angry as he does when dealing with Paparazzi. I don't blame him, not one bit. If no one else is going to fight for their rights as an American, I'm glad Kanye is.

Take some time to look at his blog (if you haven't already done so) as well as PerezHilton.com.

Btw I must say the album is absolutely amazing. You didn't hear it from me, though. ;)

Get Well Soon, Kai!

2008-11-16T18:28:00.001-08:00

My Poor baby is still sick with strep. :(

Dedication 3

2008-11-16T13:21:00.000-08:00

Just wondering.. Am I the only one disappointed here?

Download here

Words...

2008-11-14T12:02:00.000-08:00

can not express the way I am feeling right now.

I'm just... ugh, idk.

NEW Nando!

2008-11-13T11:24:00.000-08:00

Tracklisting:
1. McCain
2. DC Sleeps
3. Handle Bars
4. Acoustic Freestyle ft. Wale
5. How To Hustle
6. Que Pasa ft. Azizi Gibson
7. Sweet Dreams
8. SR Theme (soleroamer23.blogspot.com)
9. Official
10. Like Us
11. 8 Mile Road
12. 93 Till…
13. Kickflip

http://www.zshare.net/download/51263540b72967b8/
http://www.mediafire.com/?5m1yn4nlmnn

Working hard or hardly working?

2008-11-12T12:20:00.000-08:00

Today I'm actually working! No, not for my job. Why would you think that?

Actually, I've been e-mailing people ALL day long looking for a new job. I've sent out about a half a million resumes. Not only for me but a friend of mine also asked for my help, since he is incapable of doing anything for himself. Lol. Anywho, I love craigslist. If you need a job I guarantee you'll find one there! :)

Hopefully someone from the Dental Offices e-mails me back. It would be incredible to get some experience in the Dental Field. Maybe I can learn a thing or two about it before going to Hygiene School. ;)

Happy Birthday Roomie!!

2008-11-12T06:46:00.000-08:00

The big 22!

Can't wait 'till Saturday!
I hope I'll remember it the next day.... Lol.
<3

Poor Nilla...

2008-11-11T18:56:00.000-08:00

I am SO, so sick! I just want to lay in bed all day and relax.

But Nooo! Thrilla has to work! Ugh.. This sucks.

I haven't been this miserable since last winter.

Bleehhhhhhhhhh.

:'(

Dilemma!

2008-11-11T08:21:00.000-08:00

As you already know, I am -phoneless-. Should be getting a new phone this weekend, depending on which one I chose.

To make a long story short, I'm not sure whether to go with Verizon or T-Mobile.

VERIZON: I get this:

Only problem is it hasn't exactly came out yet...

But should come out around mid-november.

T-MOBILE: I get this:

SO!

I need your opinions on what service/phone to get. Seriously, because I'm stumped. I'm leaning a little on the T-Mobile side, but I'm just not sure.

I would appreciate any help.

Thanks.

I AM... SASHA FIERCE

2008-11-11T07:31:00.000-08:00

I was wondering when Beyonce was going to come out with a new album. I'm currently listening to it. I'm about half way through. It's goooooood.

Diva is a female version of a hustla,

of a hustla, of a of a hustla!

I would post the link to download, but I choose to support her and WILL buy her album. I hope you will, too. If you do find the link to download, you should buy it when it's released on the first of January anyways.

Click here to listen:

http://www.myspace.com/beyonce

Coincidence?

2008-11-10T12:51:00.000-08:00

I googled my brothers name and I was shocked to find this:

http://www.herald-mail.com/?cmd=displaystory&story_id=188735&format=html

If you scroll down to the middle of the page you will see William E. Horn. That would be my father. Apparently my brother was mentioned in an online obituary. I'm not sure why, being as though my brother kept a distance from my father since he was about 12 years old.

I was just shocked to come across this. It kind of makes me wonder if it's just a coincidence or is it some sort of sign.. or maybe even my dad trying to get my attention? Idk. It's just strange to me.

Creepy.

2008-11-10T10:28:00.001-08:00

Okay. My post from last night was titled "Stop stalking me! Please..."

Well, I feel I need to further explain the situation and maybe get some answers as to what goes on in peoples minds.

1.Myspace- I receive a message. Random guy. Enclosed "hey beautiful how r u". Okay. I ignore it as always and go about my Internet surfing. A while later I check my myspace again. Another message from the same person, "guess u cant say hi" Hmm..Ignore. A few minutes later, theres another one, from the SAME person, "yo wats good wit u cutie". Okay seriously, WTF? I'm obviously not interested in conversing with you. I'm not going to reply, let it go!

2. AIM- I received a IM from someone the other day. Something like 'Hey cutie how u doin'. Left it alone. After a few minutes of no response, they sat there and had a whole entire conversation in the IM box without me replying. Not once! People are creepy as hell, man. Then there is the one who replies to my status messages, when I've never conversed with them in the first place.

3.Facebook- Basically the same story as Myspace but with the little Facebook IMs.

It's starting to move to my e-mail now. I'm not trying to sound cocky at all. This seriously happens. I don't mind people conversing with me and making friends, but to a point. It also depends on how you come at me. And really, If I don't answer you please... Just leave me alone.

I don't get it.....

I know what you're thinking. Take the information off of your page, make your page private, etc. Okay, but what about the people who I don't mind talking to? The ones who actually make great conversation and a friendship advances from the random message and/or IM?

Ehhh I just need to hush it and get over the fact that I have stalkers!

There is always the block button.... *evil eye*

Best Toy Ever.

2008-11-10T07:30:00.000-08:00

If you don't have a doll of yourself,

you mean nothing to the world.

Lol.

Love of My Life.

2008-11-09T19:56:00.000-08:00

No questions asked.

NOTICE:

2008-11-09T19:22:00.000-08:00

I am NOT ignoring your texts. I apologize but I am phone less until Friday or Saturday.
Thank you.

Oh, and be prepared for a text with my new number. For those of you who were blessed with the original in the first place. Lmao.

<3

Racism.

2008-11-07T10:09:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to share my thoughts with you all on racism, since it seems to be everywhere I turn these days.

Just because Obama is African American does not mean he will be less of a president than a Caucasian man. Just because McCain is an old white man doesn't mean he would have been less of a president than any younger male of any race. I don't understand why anyone would vote for a man to become president simply because he is black. I don't understand why anyone would vote for a man to become president simply because he is white. People, how many times does this need to be said: It is NOT about the color of ones skin. Especially when electing the President, the Ruler, the decision maker, etc. of our country.

I'm going to keep this short and sweet. There's no need to ramble on and on... and on.

I just never in my life understood why people are categorized by the color of their skin. I just don't understand. We are all human beings. We are all Gods children. The world is a cruel place, and that's a damn shame.

I'm hungry.....

New Blog.

2008-11-07T06:49:00.000-08:00

Just moved my blogsite, obviously. I didn't like the way my wordpress looked. And I could never fix it. :
This is so much easier. :D
Soo.. Bare with me.